No Amount of Vintage Dresses Gives You Dignity

You know who you are.

Anyway, it's been over a week since I saw him and I'm pretty much dying. I was a dumbass and didn't think to give my number, so now I have to wait until the next trip we go on to see him. It's pretty much the worst and best torture I've ever experienced.

Meanwhile I'm starting to panic about my apartment. My parents are really good at making me freak out about stuff. I couldn't look at the apartment I was going to get but I did manage to ask to see a different floorplan but that had the same cabinets. I was alright with it. But now my parents are all "But you didn't see the actual one! It could be worse! It could have rotten floors!" And blah blah blah. So now I'm all worried again and I'm going to try to see if the actual room is empty for me to look at again. Hoping for the best because I haven't applied anywhere else. It costs money to apply at each place I go to! I'm not made of money. It's ridiculous. Anyway, I'll see if I can see the room and I guess I'll look at some other places too, to be safe. Ugh. I just want this whole ordeal to be done and settled. And I still have to arrange a time to go to Baton Rouge to get my furniture, and bring it all back, and YARG!

I'm getting a massage weekend after next though, which should be nice. Friday I'm working at AE again. That's going to be a LONG day, let me tell you. Working from 8:30 to 5:30, then from 7pm to 1am. Ouch. But I need that money badly.

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You know she is official when its unofficial and she is still loyal.

And all the things

That I wished I had not said

Are played on loops

Till it's madness in my head.

 

we are all in the gutter but some of us are looking at the stars.

But right now everything looks strange to me, as if I don’t belong here. It’s me that’s out of place. And the worst thing is that I feel there’s somewhere I do belong, but I just can’t find it.

And then she saw it, the anguish shattering his gaze, as if he simply couldn`t fight any longer. The defeat as the walls finally crumbled and she saw what was underneath.

Something in your eyes was so inviting. Something in your smile was so exciting.  

All my life I've been searchign for you , How did I survive in this world before you?

'Cause I don't want to live another day without you now.

It was your world, baby and I just lived in it.

 

Well they say you can't have, everything you want
All of the time
But I won't sleep and I won't stop
Until you're mine. 

you're dangerous cause your honest, you're dangerous cause you don't know what you want.

I know its over and it never really began , but in my heart it was so real.

I'm not crazy. Maybe I'm just so sane that it blows your mind.  

 I used to think you took my breath away then I realized I was just being suffocated by your bullshit.

 

I look for you in everyone.