A little healthy advice: When you really, really want to post a rant and a rave on your blog, go ahead and type it up in the screen. Then take a good look a what you wrote. Then THINK ABOUT IT. Nine times out of ten, you should probably delete it. But trust me, you'll feel at least a little better after typing it out. It helps you organize your thoughts. That way when or if you have an in-person confrontation, you can say what you want to say without turning yourself in circles trying to find the right words. That's the sort of thing that gets you in trouble.
All I can say right now is, I'm upset. But I could be a whole lot worse. My coping skills are so much better.
Partly due to the fact that I realize now that if people don't treat me the way I want to be treated, then I really don't have to be around them, now do I? If I'm hurt, I don't have to be with them. That's the solution. Trying to force them to change is the wrong road. I tried that road, and it led me nowhere. The right road is just to say...hey, this isn't right for me, so I'm not going to be around it.
Sometimes I get confused. I let other people affect what I believe too much. I believe that what happened was rude and inconsiderate. And I always let them change my mind. I'm always so afraid that I'm wrong, that maybe I'm doing something wrong, that I'm too closed-minded or something. Why? Why can't THEY be wrong? Just once. Just once.
I'm right this time. Not just because I want to be right, but because I truly believe that I am. And that's that.
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